Quote:
Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967
After a few off days on the couch, I知 on the move again. I値l be attending bible study and then have lunch with friends. Later on I値l have therapy. Tonight the church drops off dinner which is always delicious.
My mood is good and I am hopeful for the future.
I was on the phone with Medicare for 3 hours last night. Yes, 3. They have an open claim from 1994 where my brother broke his RIGHT leg in a car accident. Medicare is saying that when he broke his LEFT femur this past November the two were related so the auto insurance policy should pay for it. Medicare will not currently pay for his broken femur from November. It痴 almost too ridiculous to believe. I will have to go to some difficulty to get it fixed. I値l work on that today. It痴 really good I知 here as mom and brother were confused on the whole thing and would not be able to talk to Medicare or resolve the problem.
Hugs to all  |
This week marks the sixth week in a row that I have been going to a program called Celebrate Recovery it is a faith based 12 step recovery program and it can be for any reason not just drugs and alcohol. The funny thing is the only reason I know how long I have been going back is because the day I started back was the day they started serving dinner again lol. Heck dinner is only 4 bucks and it is all homemade food.
The thing is I can no longer sing any of the songs or even say the Serinty. Prayer anymore cause it makes me cry for some reason. I stopped going to CR cause the last time I went was Jan 3rd 2020 I was talking about my sister having cancer and her and I never got along I mean we had not talked or anything for almost 15 years but i was thinking about reaching out but she died Jan 4th. Yes I shed a couple of tears but that was it. CR shut down for awhile because of covid. Well I was thinking about going back and then my brother got murdered. June 24th 2020 and I cried a lot over that. My wife passed away in November 18th of 2021. I had lost all hope for anything at that moment. Now my daughter who is struggling with her relationship with god talked me into going back to CR two different times but I just started crying not even seconds into the first seconds of a song so I left both times.
7 weeks ago a lady I kind of knew from the program got a hold of me and kind of forced my hand and would not take no about going back to CR again. well I went and I have not stopped going back heck it was the only reason I started back to showering at least once a week. Now at the suggestion of people on this thread and even people in real life my daughter and I started going to a faith based program called Grief Share. Since I got god back in my life I do feel better I mean I wish I could go longer than a hour without crying but it is what it is.
My daughter is struggling with her relationship with god and I told her yesterday that in my opinion she could worship go or she could worship a rock. I told her what I think that makes people happy is not necessarily who or what they worship but that they do worship and that give a person hope and we could all use a little hope in our lives cause even a little can make you happy.
I'm sorry I kind of hijacked you post lately when I start to post I just keep going on and on and I end up writing a post that is a stupid book. I honestly was never like this in the past but it really feels good to get this stuff out of my head. Who knows maybe I am manic maybe I'm not. I did make an appointment to see my doctor to see about getting at least a prn med. I would also lime something that would help me sleep better than my Ambien.
Thanks again for letting me rant and sorry to Jack your thread
Sent from my LM-T600 using Tapatalk