My daughter works nights. Well last nightbi had some stuf that has been working against our relationship since she was like 12. I got all that off my mind and I apologized to her for several things that have happened between her and I. Well I went to bed and she did not respond back to me and I was ok with that. Well I woke up around 7 and she had responded to me at like 645. I sent her a message and she was still up cause she had not been asleep since she got off work.
We had this great conversation for the longest time. I talked about some things I had done once again but not a repeat of the stuff I had already said to her I apologized for those things now I did not say anything about the stuff she had done but she actually brought up things she had done in her past this conversation went on for the longest time and we did not blame each othe for stuff from the past but we both admitted things that we had done to each other over the years and we both appologized to each other. It turned out to really be healthy for our relationship no finger pointing no arguing nothing just being open and honest with each other.
I have alway been a very honest person but I really am not a very open person it is hard for me to open up to others. That's why I never got anything out of counseling because I have trust issues and I won't open up to people because I did not trust them. After my wife died I decided to start being more open with my feelings at least with my daughter and I am ok with that. The other problem I have is I don't like to accept offers of help and I refuse to ask for help I am getting a little better about that though but I am really good at telling people that I am fine and I am doing good and a majority of them believe me. The ones that call me out on that are the friends I have made from attending Celebrate Recovery I love those guys.
The other place I have found that I can open up at is here and specifically this thread. I don't know if it is because of the fact that you are strangers or what. I have written here more since I started posting here then I probably have written in the past 10 years. I do know one thing about here that has helped me become more open is I have never gotten the feeling of being judged here and I thank everyone in here for that it really means the world to me. Well thanks for letting me rant I greatly appreciate it it really means the world to me. I think I will have chilli for breakfast.

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