My current T and I have been working together 5+ years. I've had 2 other Ts before him, but he is really the only one that's made a difference. I've grown so much and I am definitely in a better place then I was when we first met.
Last year, we started cutting back our sessions, from one a week to once every two weeks and now once a month. The decision was both of ours. He has now created his own practice, which doesn't really work with insurance so I would be self pay. Before he left his former practice, he told me to think about what I could afford and let him know my decision. I texted him saying I could afford $50 (which was the amount he suggested) and was ready to schedule for next month.
He now says that seeing me once a month would be a disservice to me and that we'll work together for the next few months (or however long it takes to find a new T) and then not see him anymore.
I'm struggling with how I feel about it. I do feel betrayed, I've worked with him for so long and now he wants to end our sessions. He knows everything about my life and the way I think and starting over with someone else is really not something I want to do. I'm trying to reason with myself by saying therapy had to end at some point why not now? But I think because it wasn't something I decided or we both decided together it's different. And then I think about how silly it is for me to be so attached to him. I'm a 35 year old adult, I should be able to handle this. I don't know why this is having such an emotional effect on me, I don't have a history of people leaving me, if anything I've cut out relationships before myself. Are my feelings valid here?