Your feelings are totally valid. It sucks. I think even more so because yeah, it isn't your decision, and I don't really understand what he is getting at. Maybe you guys can talk some more about it. I had my T of 5 years cut working with me too, recently, and it is taking me a long time to come to terms with it. I'm not sure I ever will actually come to terms with it to be honest, unless I can talk it out with her some more one day in the future. So, if I have any advice at all, (and if you want it) at least try and spend as much time processing this ending with your T. I personally think they should at least give you as long as you feel you need for that. Hugs if you want them. It's not a nice situation at all.