Generally things are a tiny bit better today. Not so much up and down of my mood and my anxiety is dampened. It is cold and snowy here today, but I got out very early for some groceries, because something I like was on super sale (while supplies last) so I made sure to get some. But I've not thought that much about S (you know what I mean, but I am not allowed to discuss it here). I'm not sure why things are even a little better today, considering the weather, but I'll take it.

This big task I have is still hanging over my head. I'm not sure why I can't just get it done. It will be stressful and will probably send my anxiety through the roof while doing it, but once done the clouds part and sunshine comes in. Just can't make myself do it and I don't know why. Would I really rather be homeless or S instead of doing this task? Feels like it for some reason.