I was back in the club last night. Absolutely zero sleep. Brain, WTF????

Okay, it was partly my fault because I didn't get up and do things as I had planned, but laid in bed feeling sorry for myself. I did play my soothing music playlist, and I did some yoga, and I turned on public radio in the kitchen and left it playing the rest of the night. Those calmed me down, but there was no sleep, and I just laid there, disappointed.

Durn, this is getting old. Well, if I post about it, maybe it'll help somebody to see that someone survived this nonsense. If I don't sleep at all, usually I sleep very deeply the next night and wake up feeling extremely refreshed. Maybe that somewhat makes up for the sleepless night.

I just ordered a weighted blanket on Amazon. I'm also recording some Youtube sleep meditation videos, to play in bed. I'm not giving up.

I can increase the lamotrigine to where is was before on Saturday and that may help. I was in a really sweet spot, before I decided I was "over it" and didn't need medicine any more. That's happened I think 3 times now, and I think I'm convinced that I don't get over it, it's either the medicine or a short (about 3 month) remission.