After another sleepless night last night--I tried a few things then just gave up, grumping in disappointment that the mirtazapine isn't working--I ordered a weighted blanket from Amazon. Has anybody tried that? I'm also recording some sleep meditations from Youtube to play in bed.

@BethRags

I'm glad your things came in the mail and otherwise things are going pretty well for you. And thanks for the laugh about the M&Ms.

Looks like things have gone right for several people and not so well for others... I can't even remember who. I'm so tired I wouldn't be surprised if I couldn't remember my own name. I'll probably sleep tonight, and it's just a few more days until I can go up to 100 mg of lamotrigine, which is where it starts to work for me. If it doesn't, and the weighted blanket doesn't, and the sleep meditations don't, I'm going to try to get some additional medication. I'm already researching it. I'll have to get it from a regular doctor; it takes months to get in to see a psychiatrist here. I'm hoping to find a doctor (my old one moved away last year) who will respect my ability and let me suggest the medicine most likely to work. I'm thinking over a tactful way to say it: "With all the things you treat I figure you don't have time to get into all these details, and anyway, I've tried a bunch of them in the past" or something like that.