Hah, I'm going to post under my yesterday's coping...

Feeling very anxious today. DH came home and he's on a relatively even keel mentally and emotionally at the moment. He's like "What's wrong? After 8 years of a roller coaster, I'm all better now, so things have to go back to normal." I don't think he's all better, and the fact that he thinks his mental status can turn around in a matter of weeks, just makes no sense and only an idiot would buy into that. And even if it were possible, there's a lot of trust that is in the toilet at the moment. He doesn't seem to realize how much damage his undiagnosed condition has caused, and that it's not remedied because he suddenly feels good. He comes home early from work today and I'm not looking forward to it. He doesn't understand I need space and he will follow me around and then act hurt that I don't feel like pretending that nothing bad has been happening for years.

Anyway, I worked on my 12 step codependency book a bit. That helped clarify a few things, but I always feel like it's two steps forward and one step back. Or maybe one step forward two steps back... Need to find a way to get my own feet back under me.