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Old Mar 10, 2022, 09:44 PM
Raven1976 Raven1976 is offline
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In May I started having some memories about my father which included him laying in bed next to me whispering things to me and another one his body moving back in forth in a sexual motion. I closed my eyes and tried to remember. I know that’s not what most people would do. They would try to forget but I have so much shame from how sexual I was as a child that I just want answers but instead I feel like I may have put false memories in my mind but the fear I experienced with these “memories” were real. My body got stiff and tense and I yelled Stop! I’m my mind. This isn’t first time I’ve tried to remember and that has not always happened that I got scared but someone told me once that if you challenge your natural defense mechanisms you will experience fear. I guess that makes sense. If I were telling myself a tiger was about to chase me and it wasn’t I could eventually convince myself that a tiger was going to chase me and get scared. That doesn’t explain still why sometimes when trying to remember I get scared and do sometimes I don’t. Any advice will help. TIA
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