It’s been almost 4 years and I still miss ex T.

Tonight I saw a news article with her in it. The reporter interviewed her about the clinic she works for. She has a prominent role there.

I know there was a lot of mixed opinions about my T, what she did, what I did, and how it ended, but I’m really struggling. All the therapists I’ve talked to after her were appalled by her behavior and blurred boundaries.

Tonight though, it’s hard for me to hold onto that my feelings are valid when she has such a prominent role and great reputation. I miss her and I wonder if the letter I sent her a year ago outlining the effects her behaviors had on me had any impact at all. I know she cared about me, but in the end, why would she feel bad about harming one client when she’s helped so many others?

I am sorry for all the negativity. I’m just really sad.