I feel hesitant to jump in to respond to people here, or even give a hug or thanks. I feel like I'm intruding, trespassing.

I'm so happy to be back though, I can't explain it. I noticed earlier today that I was even a bit hyper/happy feeling which made me take note of how long it's been since I've genuinely felt that feeling with complete abandon and without effort.
I've just felt so desperately alone, so abnormal, the outcast with the low self esteem, depression and worsening anxiety.

It's just good to be here, be back, even if I'm still hesitant to engage.