I feel guilty for not contributing more back four years ago when I first discovered and joined the forum. I didn't know that would occur and then I kept thinking it would get better and easier. Maybe it was, but it was a lot slower going than I thought it would be.

I also feel guilty for leaving for 4 years. Not for having to leave, but for it lasting as long as it did and not returning sooner, or even checking in. I know it wasn't intentional on my part, I didn't plan on not coming back for so long. I had to readjust to the move and the living arrangement. But 4 years! I really don't know where the time went. Just a big ole waste of wallowing in my suffering. Not completely really, but enough.