I need to talk ... Haven't had time to read trough all the posts. I am frightened and I am beginning to have suicidal thoughts. I am very much afraid that I will not have packed everything when the moving van comes in the beginning of next week. There is nobody who can help. My grown up child is on a weekend trip and so are other family members. My family is small. None of my friends know that I struggle ...

Ahh, at least I can feel a tiny bit of hope, now, while writing here. May be I only needed to talk to somebody. Hope so. I usually have cognitive ideas about what to do if feeling suicidal, but now everything feel "out of place".

May everybody have a good day!