I think I’m crashing. I’m in a piss poor mood. I’m snapping at both my boys. I power cleaned the kitchen in 10 minutes to make sure I did something while RS was at his side job. He doesn’t get mad but I can’t shake the boulders on my back so quick. I was a little agitated, enough to demand we go to the store and buy things so I could get out of the house and feel better. In my defense though the only unnecessary purchase was two spring candles.

I just hoped it doesn’t mix again. I’d much rather be depressed. I’m running out of hope. No joke. I hope the php dr has some ideas. I really, really, REALLY don’t want ECT again. Like really. It ruins my memory. And my memory is already trash right now.