I am going through so many things and then last night I was just about asleep and started bawling. I was thinking about my mommy. I just want my mommy back so badly...I want to be with her where ever she is. I know that I can't, but it doesn't stop the feelings. I feel so very alone right now and I am really really depressed.

I have so much on my plate and WAS feeling like I can deal with/handle anything, but I can't....I just don't see the worth in it right now!

I just want to disappear...go away...not feel anymore of this pain that I deal with every freakin day!

I don't want to bring anyone else down. I just don't know what to do.