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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic
Are you following your essential self or your social self? In finding your own North Star by Martha Beck it says that some of us are so worried about what others think we stop listening to ourselves. She teaches you how to recognize what I call right brain and listen to what you really want at your core.
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I'm not sure.. I'll have to figure it out. It will come with time. Just the trauma of my bad trip made everything so much worse.
I need to feel connected to the world. I know myself enough that I just re-run the same old stuff, throw it in to swirl and dish out the same thing but in a different way.
It's like a complete disorganization of thoughts, feelings. I'm constantly going through spiritual enlightenment, philosophizing.
I think of the rest of my family and how they think about life - It all went right over my head for the longest time.
Don't mind me just venting slightly lol.. I would like to have IRL friends to do things with - I'm not sure if that's my social self, or just being social. But also, listening to my essential self would be learning everything and then narrowing it down to focus, constantly on the one or few things.
I guess I just need balance - And I'm doing good so far. I'm not being reckless.. and my impulsivity is minimal. I try my best and confident that I can make a few mistakes because I'm just a person.