Please don't worry about "whining" because I don't see it that way, I see it as reaching out for help and expressing yourself. As for bringing everyone down, I worry about that too, but you aren't bringing me down. I want to help you if I can.

I think you are a very kind hearted, nice person who deserves good friends just like everyone does. You also deserve to express your emotions, even if it is only safe here to do it.
I am here for you!!!!

BJ