This whole year my mental health was good and I did not go into a spiral-like I did last year where it was tough. I am trying every day for myself plus I got myself back into school which has been good so far. I am not at the same pace as everyone since I took a break from school for 3 years. My dad expects me to do everything I am not. Yesterday he compared and belittled me by talking about his ex-co-worker daughter, graduating from college, and how she works for the city. Talking about all the grants she received then proceeds to say only smart people get grants. He said if I was so smart then why am I in community college and have no scholarships. If I was making something of myself then why am I still in school. Made me feel completely stupid, but I truly feel as if I am a disappointment.

It sucks because I was doing so good with my mental health, but after yesterday I can't stop crying. I hate feeling this way and I know I shouldn't listen to my dad, but it's hard. I have talked to my dad about my mental health, but he still doesn't understand. I don't have anyone to confide in, so I hold all my feelings.

I never asked to be born yet people expect so much from me.

Anyway, thank you for listening.