not to cast blame, but from anything i can figure out those who blame and scapegoat are simply unable to accept their own responsibility for how things are? one of my step-mothers was a scapegoater... she was just angry it seemed to me all the time, needed someplace to vent constantly, so, i guess i was the nearest weakest object?

sorry this is happening for you fuzzy, would it help to remind yourself that the love you share and contribute to others is the very medicine those hurtful people also need? by giving the love you so consistently give others i believe you are doing the greatest thing for yourself and others around you... in theory, it would only be a matter of time before that love extended onto your oppressors.. in the meantime tho... gather strength from those who share and feel your connection of goodness.. sending you strength and prayers..