I also can’t get my T (who I stopped seeing 15 months ago as I couldn’t go on), out of my head. I don’t consciously think of her, but she is there every day. Someone once said to me that therapy is a treatment that carries on working even after you’ve stopped. I suppose if it was a helpful, positive relationship, that ended well, I can imagine that carrying that inside you could be helpful (if it’s true). My feeling is that right now, it’s best for me to just accept that my T is stuck in my head (it’s not positive). I don’t think I can do anything about it. I just observe it, I don’t react to it. I think that therapy is hazardous, for some of us. If anyone has any way of dealing with it, I’d love to know. I think that imagery rescripting of the relationship could help, but right now I feel that it’s best for me to steer clear of therapy.
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