@BethRags

I couldn't get myself to go to the gym :-/ but I did walk to pick my son up and then took a walk with him and RS. The walks made me feel a bit better.

I was terribly depressed the whole day. Lots of SI and SH thoughts. Unfortunately I’ve taken to hitting my head recently. With my hand, not on a wall, but still. Not a good thing. I don’t want to get into the habit. There’s no way anyone can stop me from doing it, I mean it’s not like RS can hide my hands. And my normal route of SH takes effort, this doesn’t.

I did color some more and that helped. I felt motivated to wash the dishes and put the laundry in after that.