Thank you for apologising, though I am surprised you didn't figure out that was the root of it, that that was 'the trauma' as you put it. However I do believe that you will now be more 'careful'. Problem is, as I have always wondered, how the hell are we going to get to do 'the work' when I literally can't get close to it. Every time I take a tiny step towards it all hell breaks loose inside.

I do quite like the idea of you checking in with me though, it seemed to work today to stop me falling down the rabbit hole, but yeah, I think too much might distract me. I'm sure we will find our way with it though. I'll have a think about what we can do to try and make the space feel more comfortable.

Like you said, this is just going to take a fair while I think. Despite my wanting it to be quick.