I spent a while learning about the spice, "Saffron". My mom says it's the most expensive spice - I remember she bought some when I was a kid and the word sticked with me. Sassafras is used to make safrole oil which can make ecstasy;

"The classic ‘ketone’ approach (certainly not the only possibility, but the best documented one) has a lot of variations, but the basic scheme is the oxidation of the plant oil safrole (1-allyl-3,4-methylenedioxybenzene) into a ketone (3,4-methylenedioxyphenyl-2-propanone), which is then condensed with methylamine and reduced to the final MDMA product."

I tried this drug in 2017 and it gave me good energies (Childhood energies - I've had them a lot as a kid before apathy). It was used a second time in 2019 but it gave me a panic attack so I took lorazepam and went to sleep.

I just thought about it while searching up if "5-HTP" (5-Hydroxytryptophan) can help lift my mood and if I should buy it at the health food store - But too much serotonin can decrease catecholamines;

"Included among catecholamines are epinephrine (adrenaline), norepinephrine (noradrenaline), and dopamine." (Catecholamine - Wikipedia) - This type of stuff is fascinating too.

But I don't want them to decrease and be dissociated from serotonin... I would like a good balance of my neurotransmitters - The Vyvanse.. and Wellbutrin.. Psychiatrist making sure that they are floating around between my neurons.

My mom said that I could take a course in traditional medicines which takes a few years. I could do that... Now that I am extremely hyper aware of/sensitive to everything. I just find that the medicine/drug knowledge goes so deep and can keep me occupied forever.

I think I should just keep studying all of the things that I personally want because it could lead me somewhere good - Much better than freaking out about the news/world/corruption because there's NOTHING I can do to stop that. If something bad happens, I get transferred into another reality and then readjust my course.

Anyways... Yeah.. I am still tired. But I will continue pushing, ignoring, ... insanity..