Ok so I only took 3mg of vraylar today to see if it was going to help the spasm/restlessness and I think it was a bad idea? I’m super irritable again. I got so mad and exasperated in group, which was ironic because it was anger management lol. I’m just mad I have to sit through these damn skills groups again. But I guess it’s not that bad bc it’s different members so I guess we’ll have different discussions. Also I’m a little paranoid today, just like I don’t want people behind me and stuff like that. I’m planning to walk to get my son but I’m not sure I’ll be comfortable. When RS comes home we’ll all walk together again.

I just didn’t think one day of 3mg would do anything, I was planning on taking it for a few days (after dr approval as I see her tomorrow) and I thought since it has such a long half life it wouldn’t bother me.

My GI appt went very well though. I asked to see a different dr and she was very nice and is actually going to do a test! The other one just dx’ed me with GERD and sent me on my way. I’m having an endoscopy at the end of June to see if the pain is from an ulcer and if not she’ll do another ultrasound to look at my gallbladder and liver. I’m a little nervous about the endoscopy because of the anesthesia, it’s only light sedation but it’s the same kind as ECT and it will remind me of that.

I’m gonna relax for a bit (or at least try).