I have felt the feelings you describe about your old T. I’m not sure it’s re traumatising (unless they have crossed some boundaries or acted badly) but I know things do get worse before they get better. So in a way I guess it’s re traumatising, but for a good reason. Like opening up an old wound that hasn’t healed properly, cleaning it out, and waiting for it to heal again. Some wounds have to be opened many times to heal, and that will definitely hurt.

The fact that you had to stop seeing her is probably the worst part, as you weren’t finished with the process. I’m glad you get to see them again, even if it hurts…hopefully you can work through some of those feelings with her. Maybe it will take time, but you can start the process again with your new T (I know starting over sucks, but it will be worth it in the end) and work through the feelings of abandonment with them.