I just don’t know what to do. I really want to see her but a part of me is afraid that it will make everything worse. Already, just by thinking about this, I miss her more. She’s in my mind so many times each day. It really is like a crush but without the sexual part. I want her care and attention constantly. I’ve stopped myself from emailing her these last couple of weeks but when she emailed me, I felt the instant need of contact again. But I just wrote that the app change was fine. Nothing more. I really wonder sometimes.:. Are therapists aware of the intense feelings that some clients have? They say that they understand but I’m not sure they do. Perhaps I have even more intense feelings due to being bpd, I don’t know. It takes over everything.