earthmama and foreverlost, as I read your experiences, I thought of something I read once about a treatment for depression that involves going with a group into the wilderness and living for several weeks in the forest, beach, sun, wind, sand--eating lots of natural foods, cooking own meals over fires, etc. It's said to be helpful to some with their depression. I think it would be helpful to me. The trick is making time to incorporate more "outdoor" experiences into everyday life.