I did something really stupid and now I’m worried I have lost my boyfriend. We’ve been together for about a year. I’m really upset. I would like some real solid advice and opinions and not just things I want to hear.

I’m Heartbroken. My boyfriend blocked me last night after I sent him a couple of stupid drunk text messages. I want to make things right and I don’t know if I can. For a few weeks he’s been planning a trip away to see his sister. He left yesterday. I went out last night to a concert and came back. I was fine. We texted a bit and he said, “goodnight cutie! Have a good night!!” Then I stupidly drank and sent him a couple of drunk texts. He blocked me last night.

I am also having Vision problems and need major eye surgery.

The drunk text in question was basically this, “I want to be alone right now. I’m having a hard time dealing with my eye issues. Leave me alone please. I’m scared” of course this was a drunk text and I didn’t mean it.

I was able to reach him this morning on my spare phone. I asked him why he blocked me. He said, “I blocked you because you were being retarded last night.” I texted him back, “Please unblock me. I’m sorry sweetie.” Then, “I’m just depressed.” Followed by, “we’ll talk when you get back” and then, “I love you.” Finally, “all I can say right now is I’m sorry.” He texted back 4 hours later and said, “We’ll talk when I’m back…you are making things worse, you need to think about things clearly.” I don’t even know what he meant by that. Then I responded, “I know, you’re right. I’m gonna do better. Just the last week or so has been a little hard on me with some stuff. I just found out my surgery is at the end of April, so that makes me feel a bit better. For sure, we’ll talk after you’re home.” I haven’t texted him since and I haven’t heard from him.

He was already annoyed with me from the day before about something. He hasn’t totally blocked me. He blocked me on Facebook and on his phone, but not on Instagram and last I knew I could still reach him on my spare phone, but he could have blocked that too by now.

I am hoping this is just a case of his needing some space. I annoyed him. Give him a day or two to cool off. But I’m worried he’s done with me. I’m also worried I’ll never hear from him again. Do you think things will be okay, or do you think I kind of ruined this?