My mom can't attend the therapist appointment cuz she has to work late. So Idk what I'm gonna say.

I rushed everything at work and then had a shower etc and cleaned the house when I came back. I see my therapist in less than an hour.

I'm full of energy but compulsive need to organize everything around me so I can then try and organize my mind. I still procrastinate things.

Hopefully, if I psych myself into a better mood and fake it until I make it, I could be better idk.. It's norepinephrine energy from the Wellbutrin (I think).

I think lack of emotion is my type of depression. I would love to actually feel melancholy (And I did this morning, I cried - And last night too). Like the comedown of MDMA in 2017, I cried 250 times in a week - That's what I assume depression to be like (Which I think is actually not that bad - It's better than feeling nothing).

I just need to tell her about my nihilism, disorganized mind... And idk.. Idfk.