I'm doing weirdly today. Last night I took an extra 20mil geodon. Not totally sure why. But I was knocked out from 8PM until 5:30. The weather is unusual today and so are my moods. I'm guessing my moods are just weather related. I'm not anxious or depressed or moody. I'm just kind of here I suppose. I've been watching TV most of the day. My sister and her family arent coming over until later this afternoon. I'm normally winded down for the night by then. And then I'll just get talked to by my mom the next day for not being social. Who eats dinner at 8PM anyways? Plus they keep saying for 2 hours dinners almost ready when its not. And they plan these big elaborate meals when I'm not into all that stuff. Not everything has to be loaded with butter and italian dressing and other stuff. So its really best for me to just eat before they come over and hang out in my room. I've just been on this really strict schedule for awhile. Normally I eat dinner at 3:30. Then I close the door to my room at 5. Then I put my headphones in at 6:30 and try to go to sleep then and I am normally asleep by 7:30. Then I hopefully don't wake up before 4AM

I bought an angel food cake the other day and I cut it into 14 pieces and I froze half and ate one piece but now I just froze the other 6 pieces. My extreme self control over food often just turns into food waste. My mom has the opposite problem and binges a lot and I've heard it often flips in generations. A binge eating mother will have a restricting eating son. My great aunt was anorexic. So it makes sense genetic wise that I'd be restrictve as well.