Checking in. My therapist called me out of the blue in response to a text that I sent her. She was worried. That call with my daughter was wretched and I was very upset. She validated my thoughts and feelings and gave me some recommendations for moving forward. I am to protect myself against the verbal abuse and quit trying so hard. To that end, I cancelled the visit scheduled for tomorrow. It would be neither fun nor productive. I honestly don’t know what the next best step is with my daughter. It’s gotten toxic and she is not wanting to take responsibility for her own recovery. It’s easier to point the blame at me, cut me down and treat me as the monster. I’m over it for now.

I have a friend that I’m very fond of and attached to who is quite inconsistent. I’m told them of this and yet the behavior remains. It hurts, sometimes angers and confuses me. I’m not sure what the next best step is there either. Start slowly distancing myself? Build up my other friendships to counter it? I’ve promised myself no more tears over this person and enough self respect to walk away if needed.

I’m just in a pickle all the way around. Life here at the house is hectic and falling apart. They both need to be in nursing homes. I’m barely hanging on.

I know. I’ll have the self love and self respect to put my needs and my recovery first and these situations will fall out however they fall out. I’ll take appropriate action in line with my needs and let the chips fall where they may.

I feel better now. Thanks for listening. Hugs to all.