@otroo, I don't think there is ever a situation of "full recovery" from the loss of a dear person. But that doesn't mean we can't continue life and find new love (though not a "replacement") and support that give life satisfaction and happy days.

For me, it took time to start transitioning from complete despair at the thought of loss of my first love, my mother, paternal grandfather, and nephew (all very dear to me) and the ability to look back at them with a smile that they blessed my life. And they are all always with me, in a real sense. They will never be lost in my heart and mind. They helped make me in many ways. That lives on.

I'm so glad you are writing. Writing was also a valuable tool for me during my grieving processes. Some draw, some write, maybe dance, and others do other things as a means of release, remembrance, and more.