I don’t know how much longer I can avoid self harm. I’ve hit my head several times now. The more dangerous item is still there, I did not tell him about it, I should have and I will when he gets home. I hope it’s not too much longer. I don’t want to call him at work and make him lose money. I really ought to go to the ER I think but I don’t want to be IP again, not at all. I’m just so uncomfortable, I feel like ripping all my skin off. I may or may not have heard music that wasnt there last night but I’m hoping it was just my son’s music playing quietly upstairs, I think it was.