I'm on to something anyways.. Just I have a bad headache. Everything is fragments of thought. But I expect things to get better as long as I have at least some tools to not lose everything.

I'll just get passed this headache and then start reading the book.

One problem I have with things is my awareness in the perspective of other people, that.. I'm perceived as solipsistic and don't care about it - My mom is like this.. But she's good at it - She'll talk for hours about things that are related to what people say.. Like how the world seems to get smaller the older you get...

I've always avoided that. It's like searching the spelling for a word while you're trying to plan something. It's pessimism.

I'll take a break from the forum today lol.. This is a place to get help but I'm obsessing about how to fix things.