Hi fffw, and welcome to MSF👋👋

My gosh, it's a very disheartening distressing situation you find yourself in there. Stay positive and hopeful the best you can please, because in such times I always tell myself it can't get worse really, so therefore it may probably get better (or stay the same, but the fact you're taking positive action must mean it'll get better!)

I don't live in Michigan or USA friend, but the first course of action I felt might be necessary is for you to talk to your doctor again, but this time express with your true feelings of despair and worry, desperation, angst, that you do not wish to be on those meds due to the unwanted side effects. Because often, I believe, if the doctor can't read your emotional state sitting there right in front of them, then it's possible they won't act accordingly. Maybe you've already tried that but I'm not sure.

So, try that please, and stay hopeful. Other members here might be able to help you with legal advice and such, soon.

Believe things will get better for you and welcome.😌🙏