I'm not optimistic about the world so I can't. There's just so much corruption and deceit, brainwashing.

It is too late to live and believe the lies everyone was told.. I really don't think that I'll live for long.

I don't want to try and then be disappointed. I have to find my own way of living. It has been good so far.. Idk... Maybe I have extra thoughts and it's not comfortable.

I should have been able to see my therapist.