I've betrayed some of the closest people in my life when I was younger. I have a "friend" that is trying to reconnect with me and it's dug up all the ****edupness that I did in my teens. I know I was sick but how much can I wipe away with accepting that. That girl has no idea how I ruined her life. I don't feel she should know either. Then I realized I did that to all my "friends". I don't know why but I did. I ruined several peoples lives. I know I'm only partially responsible but that part makes me feel sick. I can't say I wouldn't ruin their lives if I became close to someone again. So I'm going to keep my distance.