I've been up since midnight acting like I have diabetes by chugging 2 bottles of water and a can of soda then pissing like a racehorse all night and still being thirsty. But I'm not hungry and I havent been for a long time and I thought with diabetes you were ravenous. I got a friend request from my bigoted very obese (she was like 400 pounds the last time I saw her) cousin who does not like me and does not hide it from my other family members. Plus shes a jack *** to some of them too. She unfriended me in late 2015 for some reason unclear to me. I'm not sure why she friended me last night after almost 7 years. If she's trying to change her ways or if she's trying to use me for something. She had mentioned to one of my cousins about trying to get back into the family. Even her own parents don't want anything to do with her. I looked at her friends list and very few family members are friends with her. My mom, my aunt, and my sister are not. So I probably will just ignore the request as well. I don't really feel comfortable having her see all my stuff anyways. She was really rude to me at my dads funeral and that stuff you just don't forget. I just feel like theres some kind of ulterior motive behind her friending me after 7 years. She's a bit of a naricisst and pretty manipulative despite almost being 40.

My doctors appointment is in a few hours and my anxiety sucks even with the valium I took earlier. Of course I don't want food and I for sure don't want to watch The Today Show so I just have to deal with it until its time to leave.