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Originally Posted by SlumberKitty
Was really feeling like I was going to SH. I texted my therapist. She had me do a pros and cons list. I did and sent it to her. In the meantime I took some Xanax. She got back to me asking how else I could self comfort and what would stop me from doing it and if she gave me $25 to send to one of my kiddos that I sponsor would it stop me form self harming for like a week. So she was basically bribing me? I didn't know how to answer that. I took more Xanax (still okay, not abusing it, I can take up to four pills a day). And I took a whole Olanzapine instead of half. I can take up to two. I am so freaking numbed out now. No pain. No nothing. I don't exist .
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I know it's easy to feel numbed out on the olanzapine and Xanax. I can relate. I feel like the fact that you took your PRN meds is a good thing. It means you know how to cope when those thoughts come up. You're totally doing the right things! Texting a T is a great thing to do, and it sounds like she cares about you.
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