That’s exactly it…..think of the psychosis as a gift in some ways…..at least for me it was…it freed me from social expectations. Once people know you hear voices there’s not much wrong with wearing a blue wig or butterfly wings etc. I’ve reigned it in a bit because there are legit social expectations especially when you need to make money and you’re hiding the bipolar but I just did a visualization and in twenty years or so I’ll be a colorful and rocking librarian doing my thing open and free….it will be glorious. It looks like in ten I’ll be straight laced and working to hide my color again but sometimes money is a driving force what can I say.

In your case though you’ve got income so if you want to travel or whatever you want you can do it. I’m not sure but you might have to break free from your mom to reach your true self, maybe not though. Only you know. But I have no doubt that you can find yourself again. You know who you were but at least for me I was someone entirely new. Let yourself explore the world with the mind of a child….it’s not no or don’t do that but if it won’t hurt me or anyone else let me try it once. Eventually you’ll find your path.