I have been suffering Chronic pain for 11 years. Everyday its a little worse. I am, sometimes, at the point that I ponder if the last 11 years has been worth it. It's made me isolate, when I should be looking for friendship. I too have started looking into long term care. No ready for it, but no one else that I know now will. Thats all on me. Its just hard to live in the moment.