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Originally Posted by WindsThatBlow
I start my new job tonight. I should be sleeping now to rest up for it but I can't seem to get adjusted to the schedule yet. I'm not really ready to work I don't feel -- I pushed myself to try to get a job because of a very poor interaction with someone who left me feeling so insecure and stupid for being in my position and like it's only my fault I suffer. I'm not 100% sure he's wrong, but I wanted to try to prove I was making a motion in the right direction for me -- and funnily enough? This apparently isn't the right decision in his eyes either, so I'm still being made to feel insecure and stupid. I really shouldn't say it that way-- i'm allowing this person in my life so it's just me allowing myself to be hurt.
Just wish me luck. I don't feel very stable these days.
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I hope your first day at the job works out for you, WindsThatBlow. If not, or if it does seem clear that the return is premature, please don't look at that as a failure. Instead, if it turns out that way, look it at as a brave attempt and a chance to test where you are right now. You need not seek that friend's approval. You need to seek your own as to whether or not it's right...now.
