I seem to be much calmer without the testosterone. I had a very sudden change in schedule today regarding therapy. It was switched from in person to virtual in about 10 minutes when I had already left my house. Instead of getting pissed I just said "ok" and I made it home in time. She was also 20 minutes late. She still gave me the full 45 minutes since it was her fault. I didn't make a big deal about it to my mom or to her. The session was productive but I could tell she wasn't feeling good.

I remember as a 17 year old teenager being really jealous of all the skinny kids with medical conditions while I was this fat buffoon with suspected somatic disorder. As Sam would say in Bewitched "Well..." man have the tables turned as a 29 year old. Sometimes I think a bit too much. I often wonder if I'll make it much past 30.

I go in for the blood thing tommorow. I'm not too nervous about it. I'm just hoping my levels go down after its done.