I wish psychiatric meds were easier. I decided to cold-turkey the Klonopin and Just go on some Xanax I had. I feel better so far. Going to suggest the idea to my doctor tomorrow.

It's actually the Xanax XR. I just feel like I know so much more than the doctors about meds and stuff because I've had to live it. It's kind of ridiculous. I am a good advocate for myself only when I am feeling better. Otherwise it's the doctors' prerogative to get me well. And I cannot trust doctors' opinions 100%.

So it's always this give and take relationship. It gets uncomfortable sometimes. That's why I switched doctors recently.

Also, I feel like no one is 100% perfect.

And lastly, I feel like since I know myself best, I have to advocate wholeheartedly for what I want. It is my life and I will take control over it. It's like the Stoics say, kind of. The judgments that are your own, you must own.

Anyway, that is all for now.