I felt good about my ZOOM support group at the time but now i feel remorse. I worry that something i said was cruel to a guy who is already suffering. I feel ashamed of the things i said. Shame was attacking me so i tried to meditate. I'm experimenting with meditation. I bought a month of the "Calm" app.
Wouldn't you know it but my dog chose that moment to destroy a plush toy and that's a swallowing hazard for dogs, which i know from a stomach upset when she was a puppy that cost $1700. You all know how poorly i deal with vet bills. So there went meditation out the window.
I know meditation is a skill that would really help me but i have this fussy dog and i can't stay with the breaths for more than a few moments. But 'non-judging' is a tenet of mindfulness meditation, as is 'patience' and 'non-striving' so i will just absorb the experience and not get frustrated.
Had fruit, veg and protein for the second day in a row. No detectable improvement in energy but it may take a while.
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Sapien:
Have you considered meditation as a hobby while your hip heals?
Here's a simple ten minute body-scan meditation that's free on YouTube that's easy and pleasant. In fact, i'm off to do it right now! See you there!