Checking in. Hello all! I’m deeply depressed today. Things look bad but at least I know that’s not reality. It’s just my mindset or the chemicals in my brain.

I talked to my friend for 3 hours last night. I’m questioning myself as to whether I’m getting close to the line in wanting to get back together with him. My therapist would have a fit. I believe it’s boredom, depression or restlessness speaking but I can’t say for sure. This is the relationship where I got badly burned just recently. I DON’T want to go through that again.

I’m having difficulty finding someone to evaluate me for a correct diagnosis. My former psychiatrist is firm in his belief that it’s Bipolar 2. I don’t really have $175-260 for an evaluation at this time as I just paid $645 for a crown and I need to come up with $400 for surgery on my tongue. I had a taste bud get inflamed and it started to grow. It needs to be removed and a biopsy performed. My daughter is the one pushing for the evaluation.

It’s raining cats and dogs here. I think I’ll skip bible study and lunch with friends and stay in today and work around the house. I have therapy today thank goodness. Tonight the church brings meals over.

I need to make some changes in my life for better mental health. I’ll make a list and get started.

Hugs to all!