Yes I agree it’s hard to make a decision to only pursue healthy relationships. Making decisions isn’t easy at all

I don’t think it’s wise to just drift along dragging out bad abusive relationships and kind of let yourself to be mistreated and ignored going through the motions. It might be easier not to make decisions but in a long run you are missing on many happy opportunities.

I think you’d be much happier when you take your life in your own hands and stop letting men define your present and future.