You spend your time ruminating why he was always so mean to you, showed no affection and why he insulted you and so on. You are focused on what he wants and what he wants to do and what should you do to get him be nicer. You keep doing it on several threads.

There is nothing anyone need to do to get a boyfriend to be nicer. If he isn’t nice no amount of your efforts will make him into a nice person. Date nicer people!

He left to a different country for a job but then quit and wouldn’t tell you what his plans are. You don’t even know if he’s coming back. He first abused you and now totally ignores you. That’s really all you need to know. That’s your answer

Being hyper focused on getting him to respond and treat you better and why he’s doing this or that is letting him define your life.

Instead better option might be to focus on why you keep pursuing him and how can you stop going what YOU doing. That would be taking life in your hands and stop making him center of your existence. Everyone on this thread told you that this is a bad relationship but your focus is still on him even though he is an abuser.

Of course you can maintain the status quo with ruminating over this man. Anonymous strangers could just advice, they can’t make you shift your focus of him. I wonder if he spends his days agonizing what you said or what you did or what could he do ti make you nicer. Do you think he is just as preoccupied with your existence as you are with his? The answer is likely no. This isn’t a healthy balanced set up.