Hey L. Wow, this thing with my mom being sick is bringing up SO much. I am finally truly and clearly seeing some things about myself that I don't like at all. Crimeny. I want to talk with you about all of this. I'm going to keep working through it on my own though. I think you were right about something you said - about what I do - so that's why I'm not calling. If I did it would just happen again, wouldn't it? When it's something this difficult to see about myself. No, I'm going to keep working this on my own. For awhile, anyway. I'm still not ready to see a new t. And may end up calling you anyway at some point. Who knows.


Love, me (who doesn't like herself very much right now)