Thanks for the welcomes everyone. It took a while of searching to find a forum I felt like I would be comfortable with.

I had been doing well but I had another mood swing last night and wasn't nice again. I think at least this time I'm not being triggered into a full tailspin (so far, but work has been very difficult today because of this), but it just sucks. I'll think I might be over it because I feel fine for a week or two and then it comes back. It taints when I am feeling well because after a year of this instability I am always nervous now if another swing is waiting around the corner. I do my best to not be too hard on myself, but it still hurts to know my illness causes pain to those I love, too.

Thanks for the responses. It's nice having found a group of kindhearted people.